A simple reminder that better times will come. Old, forgotten music instruments can be seen everywhere. A sign of the resistance -a rebellion they didn't expect. One day they came, and took it all away, it was part of their plan to make us glorious again. The world turned dark, the music stopped, the laughter died.… Continue reading Soon
Why are you attacking me, what have I ever done to you? I want to scream but I don't say a word. I haven't treated it right, have ransacked and abused parts of this beautiful, fat body for quite some time. I am carrying an imaginary adult person on my shoulders, everywhere I go. Goodness,… Continue reading I cannot be Trusted -yet
Robert Frost, when asked to provide a poem for an ecumenical religious site, wrote: We dance around the ring and suppose But the secret sits in the middle and knows. I wanted to share this piece of wisdom with everybody. How can so much wisdom come across in with just two lines?
I want to be able to do, what I can't do right now. Go for a walk with ease and not huff and puff already on my way out the door. Stand up with my head held high, and not with shaky knees. Get up and offer my seat, and not be the one who… Continue reading Small Dreams by a Big Lady
Everything I say and do you soak in the filth of your suspicion. You mock me with cold heavy glances. Worms slither from my fingers. My eyes turn hideous, like those of a witch. My hands are snakes that uncoil to choke you; but my feet stand shamed glued to the floor, trying in vain… Continue reading The Soaked Pillow
This week has been a whirlwind of emotions. I started and restarted my health journey twice. The second time I even cooked breakfast for my husband and was able to ignore the hunger feeling that overcame me -but not for long. I realize I have to dig deeper. I am an emotional eater and I need… Continue reading A Jump of Faith Back to My Roots
"It belongs to a witch," Sebastian whispered. She could hear them through the open window and she smiled when she looked outside. A stray cat had borrowed her Vespa for a nap. No wonder the kid's imagination run wild. "All witches have black cats," Jaden explained with a shaky voice. "We are going to wait… Continue reading Let’s Play!
I am hungry. I could eat a horse, or a pig, or perhaps just the two Chinese lunch specials I order so often. $5.99 lunch specials, they come with either fried or white rice, and an eggroll. Why do I think it is a fantastic offer? Their food sucks, the owner has anger issues and… Continue reading Hanging on by a Thread but Hanging on
One step forward, two steps back, that's the way I am moving right now. I juiced for 3 days and went down the rabbit hole again. I know what I have to do, I can see it so clearly, yet I cannot get my head in the game. What will it take for me to… Continue reading Eat to Live or Live to Eat
Once I was the pride of the town, now I am a bargain Abandoned, but still hopeful, awaiting new owners to come by My windows need to be opened, fresh air would feel so good The smell of the past is lingering everywhere Take the bedsheets off me, let some light in, please. I am… Continue reading Abandoned
Today is Day #1 I spent the rest of last week preparing for this big step. I gave up caffeine and it almost killed me -or so it felt. I didn't think it would be a big deal but learned quickly otherwise. I felt the withdrawal in my whole body. I am now on day… Continue reading Ready Player…Go!
The roses are for my blogging premier and I appreciate it. I am glad I found them, they were hidden, hard to see. Curiosity got the best of me -as always- and I clicked myself to the price. Of course, it's just a picture! It's the virtual word but still, it means so much to me.… Continue reading Perfect Timing Indeed
I can still see the past so vividly, so many years later? The humiliation, the pain I felt, all seems to be so present at times. I have never talked about my childhood with anybody. Back then, in the '60s and '70s, child abuse was not something people openly talked about it. THINGS happened behind… Continue reading My Mother and The Carpet Beater
Today in the morning I stepped on the scale. 315 lbs it said, and I quietly stepped off. I knew the number wouldn't be pretty, had expected nothing less. I have RA and I am talking steroids since almost three years. I have gained 85 pounds during this time. Weight gain is a normal side… Continue reading Rock Bottom!