I am dealing with the worst RA flare I ever had. My hands feel broken, every movement hurts and just getting up takes all the strengths I have. Oh God, why me? (Why not!) I have lost, gained and regained the same pounds over and over. I seem to be running in circles, like a… Continue reading 80 Days to go
I feel a bit like an explorer. I am on a journey but in my case, it is a voyage without return. There is no safe harbor. I have to find a new place to live. That's the way I look at it. Why not make it an adventure. I am on a mission to… Continue reading Well done Universe!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-HFFSYcEMCI I met him online last night. He made me smile, he made me cry. Mixed emotions, my favorite cup of tea. Of all the success stories and transformations I have seen, it's Kai's story I relate to the most. If I could meet him in person I would sit beside him and pet him on… Continue reading My Hero – A Dog
I looked outside and saw the cars driving by. Many of our neighbors had tables set out, our annual Spring-Community-Sale was in full swing. I stayed inside and watched from the sideline. This was not how I had planned it. I felt a bit like a grounded child, felt like someone had sent me to… Continue reading A Goal without a Deadline is just a Dream
Why are you attacking me, what have I ever done to you? I want to scream but I don't say a word. I haven't treated it right, have ransacked and abused parts of this beautiful, fat body for quite some time. I am carrying an imaginary adult person on my shoulders, everywhere I go. Goodness,… Continue reading I cannot be Trusted -yet
I am hungry. I could eat a horse, or a pig, or perhaps just the two Chinese lunch specials I order so often. $5.99 lunch specials, they come with either fried or white rice, and an eggroll. Why do I think it is a fantastic offer? Their food sucks, the owner has anger issues and… Continue reading Hanging on by a Thread but Hanging on
One step forward, two steps back, that's the way I am moving right now. I juiced for 3 days and went down the rabbit hole again. I know what I have to do, I can see it so clearly, yet I cannot get my head in the game. What will it take for me to… Continue reading Eat to Live or Live to Eat