I am dealing with the worst RA flare I ever had. My hands feel broken, every movement hurts and just getting up takes all the strengths I have. Oh God, why me? (Why not!) I have lost, gained and regained the same pounds over and over. I seem to be running in circles, like a… Continue reading 80 Days to go
I feel a bit like an explorer. I am on a journey but in my case, it is a voyage without return. There is no safe harbor. I have to find a new place to live. That's the way I look at it. Why not make it an adventure. I am on a mission to… Continue reading Well done Universe!
When your heart gets broken why doesn't it stop beating? I have often wondered about it, this is not the first time I felt like an iron fist has clenched my heart, but perhaps it will be the last time. I surely hope so but know better. Yet, not even twelve hours later, I find… Continue reading Today the Fridge will Stay Closed and I will be Pouting
I fought a hard battle today and I won. It took me over an hour, but in the end, I declared victory and I smiled. Ordering in, such a silly little habit and a tremendous obstacle in my way to better health, and weight loss. Fastfood, what an addiction it has become. To make matters… Continue reading Overcoming my Fast Food Addiction
Hearing my husband talk to our dog hurt me. "Mama is mean," he said and I am not sure if I was supposed to hear it or not -perhaps it doesn't even matter. We have been arguing a lot lately. The moment I started to speak up, was the moment when our relationship took a… Continue reading Am I the Mean Wife?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-HFFSYcEMCI I met him online last night. He made me smile, he made me cry. Mixed emotions, my favorite cup of tea. Of all the success stories and transformations I have seen, it's Kai's story I relate to the most. If I could meet him in person I would sit beside him and pet him on… Continue reading My Hero – A Dog
How do you forgive yourself when you have destroyed your own life? When you have self-sabotaged and talked yourself out of every healthy choice you're presented with? When you engage in a pattern of self-destructive behavior that only feeds on itself and drags you down into a black hole? At times, I feel like my… Continue reading Forgiveness for the Fat Lady!