I can and I will march on to my drum Achieve the impossible Live my dream Make a fist just because I can I have found a rhythm so it seems, march to my own drum -still stubbornly holding on by a thread. I have lost 11 pounds so far and I am mighty proud… Continue reading Pigs fly -Porkchop Style
Why are you attacking me, what have I ever done to you? I want to scream but I don't say a word. I haven't treated it right, have ransacked and abused parts of this beautiful, fat body for quite some time. I am carrying an imaginary adult person on my shoulders, everywhere I go. Goodness,… Continue reading I cannot be Trusted -yet
I want to be able to do, what I can't do right now. Go for a walk with ease and not huff and puff already on my way out the door. Stand up with my head held high, and not with shaky knees. Get up and offer my seat, and not be the one who… Continue reading Small Dreams by a Big Lady
I am hungry. I could eat a horse, or a pig, or perhaps just the two Chinese lunch specials I order so often. $5.99 lunch specials, they come with either fried or white rice, and an eggroll. Why do I think it is a fantastic offer? Their food sucks, the owner has anger issues and… Continue reading Hanging on by a Thread but Hanging on
One step forward, two steps back, that's the way I am moving right now. I juiced for 3 days and went down the rabbit hole again. I know what I have to do, I can see it so clearly, yet I cannot get my head in the game. What will it take for me to… Continue reading Eat to Live or Live to Eat
Today is Day #1 I spent the rest of last week preparing for this big step. I gave up caffeine and it almost killed me -or so it felt. I didn't think it would be a big deal but learned quickly otherwise. I felt the withdrawal in my whole body. I am now on day… Continue reading Ready Player…Go!
Today in the morning I stepped on the scale. 315 lbs it said, and I quietly stepped off. I knew the number wouldn't be pretty, had expected nothing less. I have RA and I am talking steroids since almost three years. I have gained 85 pounds during this time. Weight gain is a normal side… Continue reading Rock Bottom!